Follow your Heart/Mind

Sadly our world is filled to the brim with merciless killers and despicable people. There isn't much you can do to change the world, but I'm damn sure gonna live my life to the fullest. I ask you all this one question, when does the heart take precedence over the mind?

Meaning, when do you let your heart lead your decision making process, even when you know your mind is telling you the most logical path? Does it matter? Is it even worth going with your heart? It seems as though we don't live as human beings anymore, but as robots. Robots programmed to repeat the same routine day after day.

Well you're more than welcome to, I'll pass on that and live a little bit more enlightened. I welcome you to join me.

Suspektz101

My Soul Has a Beat

America's Best Dance Crew is back!!

Now I can't really convey just how much I love this show and just how much I love to dance. When I see someone or a group get down and really hit me inside and I can't help but start moving, best feeling in the world. I love dancing, I love the way it makes me feel and I love the way it can catch the eyes of people that would never look at you.

I don't claim to be the best at all, in fact if I could learn some serious moves or be a part of real crew, I would. It would take time to get to the level that these crews are on the show but I know I could make it.

Dance can free your body from any burden and stress. But you have to believe it, you have to know that without a doubt the moves that come through you are yours. I believe in my soul's rhythm and every time a beat drops and my heart starts thumping I can't wait to let it out.

I can only hope you have found something as pure.

suspektz101

Overcome

Good Evening,

Now I know it's late tonight my fellow bloggers but I'm beginning to feel that I want to blog every night if I can. If only just to spread some peace and love to those who want to listen.

Tonight I came home from work feeling pretty good. For those of you that don't know me, I work in the electronics department of a Walmart in Springfield Mo where I go to school. To be honest I'm not very happy with my job. I love electronics and tech, but the job really isn't the best workplace around. But tonight was a good night at work. No headaches, no backstabbing associates believing that the electronics department is full of lazy know it all jackasses. I came home in a good mood and I decided that Netflix would be a fitting end to the night. I chose to watch a stand up comedian, Steve Harvey. This man is as funny as he is spiritual and tonight I felt that the love and God is always with me.

A reminder that if you ever feel at fault, that if you ever feel the weight of the world is too much, that if you ever feel alone against the struggle... That YOU are stronger, that YOU can overcome every challenge, that YOU can succeed. YOU have to believe it or YOU will fail. Remember that the next time you feel a little on the down side and see if it doesn't make you feel better.

Peace, love and unity.
Suspektz101

The Perfect Solution

Anyone ever have that feeling of finding the perfect solution to a problem?

I feel like I've been enlightened. Tonight in my scientific writing class we discussed our readings as usual and I had an epiphany. We were discussing the placebo effect and how the mind can make the body believe anything. I had known about this for years but I never put it to good use! It was all I needed to spin my head in the right direction.

Now I know that strictly believing something will make it true, I'm no fool. But it damn sure helps make the nights go by faster. I challenge anyone who reads this to apply that mindset. Make something crushing become less daunting and see just how strong you can be. I know my strength has faulted before and it possibly still can and will. But I won't be defeated and I will get back to living my life with clarity and a peaceful soul. You can quote me on that.

Life is as good as you make it. Sorry if it comes off as cliche, but live with no regrets. Get over the pain and make a new choice that will bring you love and happiness. Love your family, your friends and all those in between cause you can never give or receive too much love and respect. I'm an optimistic man. I still believe in the absolute good in people, so goodnight to all of you who feel that the world doesn't care because if you can take one thing away from me, it's that I care.

Peace, love and unity.

Reflection

What do you believe in when Love fails?

This is not because of any one person, but more a reflection of my own crippled heart. It's still full of love and life, but it has been through enough torture to know it needs rest.

You know a broken man when you see he has a broken heart. The pain and resentment is enough to drive him insane and I am no stranger to pain. Love often feels like tug of war inside my mind and my soul but the opponent is a wall. I tug and fight as hard as I can, even feeling like I've moved the giant slab of rock but in the end I haven't gone anywhere and I give up in defeat. So what can someone who has lost seemingly everything do to make himself escape the darkness?

I've found that if you give in to the pain, it will only consume you more quickly. Fighting the pain is easy but you have to fight with the right weapons. When everything you do reminds you of the one you lost, get out. Get away. Just get as far away from the normality as you can. Change where you go for coffee in the morning, change the route you take to work. Go out and be with friends that truly care about your well being and grow. You have to keep your mind off of the pain, cause it will only take you apart piece by piece. Now, some may say they have better resolve. That they are strong enough to fight the pain of the heart. I'm strong, but I know when I need help. And if my ranting on about broken hearts comes as no surprise, then you are one who has gone through the same stress and have my sympathy. Even if you want it or not.

Fairy Tale Blues

This is just a rant, so I don't really expect any sense to come from this.

But what is it with fairy tales and fantasy that seems to pull me in so much? I firmly believe in the power of love and how it can change any person. Yet the real world doesn't always follow that same principle. The world we live in is about money, physical appearance and power with some religion sprinkled in for controversy. We are incapable of realizing just how powerful love can be or at the very least most people on Earth are incapable. I think I know that power, and I always believe at the start of a new relationship that love will guide me correctly. And it starts off great! Everything falls into place as it should, sparks fly and the moments are magical but then the real world decides to kick in and destroy whatever fantasy I had built up this time. What should I take from this? What should I do in the future? Give in to the real world demands of love and happiness or forge my own path and break the veil that the world has pulled over my eyes. I'm a fighter, always have been and always will be. Especially when it comes to love. So the next time the real world decides to break me, we'll see who comes out on top.

Peace and Love,

Suspektz101

We're Still Here

We’re Still Here
By: Damon Cooper

Nigger is what you called me,
but that is not what you made me.
You lash out with whips and hate
but that makes me stronger.
Born unafraid of your segregation
and humiliation that was meant for my people.

We are unified under the solstice
that is our Lord the Father.
No knife or bullet or white hooded
menace could ever pierce
the shield over my soul.
And as long as my soul still glows
from my faith within
I am a boulder.
Immovable as the ignorance
in your heart.
Jagged as the pain you have caused my people.

Your lies like weights
try to crush and hold us 6 feet under
gasping for breath.
Your white supremacists
mock our very existence.

Yet we are still here.
We stand tall.
We stand as one.
As strong as the ball and chain
you’ve clasped on our ankles.
We stand as one.
Brave and fierce even as your hoses
try and spray us down.
We stand as one.
Fists held high as a symbol
of your demise.
We stand as one.

Now look me in the eyes
And tell me that shit aint real.

Comments are always welcome, if you have a voice then use it!

Suspektz101

Big Brother

Big Brother
By: Damon Cooper

I could see it in your eyes,
the way you sat on the couch in front
of my window. I could see
the bulge in your neck as your head
slumped backward and you had your
favorite bottle of Carlos Rossi in hand.
I knew, before the tears burned
down your face, I knew.
You had done this to me before,
had come crying to me even though
I am your younger brother,
saying you hated life and wanted peace.
You told me you loved me and that
you were sorry for hurting me.
I didn’t understand the look in
your eyes then, not even when you took
a lighter to your back and set it on fire.
Suddenly believing what you’d done,
you screamed and jumped from my window,
attempting to kill the emotions
of lost love and poverty through death.
Shadows of your body crawled across the
house as you fell to the ground.
And I cried out to you.
I never forgot. I heard you,
I saw you twitch and burn
and now you look at me with the same eyes,
but I won’t cry anymore.


This one is for you David, I'm always praying for you.

Suspektz101

Eyes Never Lie

What do men and women think about when they look someone up and down?

Women
What I assumed before I asked this question was that women look at a man and analyze everything about him. How clean he is, the shape of his body, his arms, his legs, his chest, his hair and bulge. Stuff that would make a girl wonder just how well he takes care of himself. Mainly I thought that was it. And maybe that all depended on whether or not she was looking at his front or from behind, cause that immediately makes me assume a girl is checking out a guy's butt.

Now, the answer I got was kinda funny though. My favorite person in the world told me she often times looks and stares into space just thinking and guys just so happen to be in her line of sight. I wonder how many men thought she was looking at them and wondered if they had a chance with her? Or just chuckled and smiled to themselves as I do when I catch a girl looking at me that way. And then I had to laugh at myself. Because how many times have I caught a girl staring at me and she was thinking about her laundry or homework or what she wanted to wear out to party that night? Needless to say, my self-confidence dropped slightly.

Now besides actually just thinking, she told me that men are mysteries to women. That made me laugh again, because men are the most simple creatures on the planet. They ask some of the same questions I posed in the beginning of this blog and to be honest most men dress for comfort, some for style and the opposite sex.

Men
Now I can only speak for myself, but if I'm looking a woman up and down I'm looking at more than just her body. Not judging, but understanding what it is this woman may be about. I look at your curves, and the movement of your body. Is she rigid and stiff or is she smooth and relaxed. Its never that simple but it reveals more than any person could imagine. How someone dances, how someone is in bed with another and even how they carry themselves in everyday life. I can't deny that a lot of the time, I'm just checking a girl out and being a typical man. Can you blame me? Am I objectifying woman? Maybe, but that is still a compliment right?



Please, analyze this all you want and give feedback if you see fit. These are just ramblings from my brain so join the fray.

The Beginning

To be honest with you all I'm not really sure where this blog is going. I may post some game reviews, I may just vent on tough topics from time to time. Either way, its gonna be a hell of a ride and I hope you're all there to enjoy it.

The topic for today is "Beginnings".

I've felt that the beginning of something is always the scariest yet most fun part of anything. Everything feels so brand new and you have to work for answers, for truths that won't come easy or just by asking. Take for instance the start of a new job. Extremely excited to make some money if you've been without a job for some time, or just starting an actual career in a field you want to be a part of. Nothing can hold you back right? I mean, you push for approval from some person who resides over you in an attempt to further your own ambitions cause lets face it, you don't to be stuck in an entry level position forever and you want to make some extra cash. You know, for security.

Or what about the start of a relationship..
Something so beautiful and long lasting that when others look at the two of you together it makes them beg for something so amazing. Everything in the beginning is so scary yet when the feelings are there, you would do anything for that person. Take a bullet, change completely, forget prior goals and ambitions. I've fallen for another soul and even though its going to be a tough road for me I know I can take it and still satisfy everything I've ever wanted and so much more.

Or is the thought of pure love to strong for some of you? I'm a believer in love, always have been and I always will be. It guides me from person to person and friend to friend. I dare you all to do the same.


Suspektz101