Overcome

Good Evening,

Now I know it's late tonight my fellow bloggers but I'm beginning to feel that I want to blog every night if I can. If only just to spread some peace and love to those who want to listen.

Tonight I came home from work feeling pretty good. For those of you that don't know me, I work in the electronics department of a Walmart in Springfield Mo where I go to school. To be honest I'm not very happy with my job. I love electronics and tech, but the job really isn't the best workplace around. But tonight was a good night at work. No headaches, no backstabbing associates believing that the electronics department is full of lazy know it all jackasses. I came home in a good mood and I decided that Netflix would be a fitting end to the night. I chose to watch a stand up comedian, Steve Harvey. This man is as funny as he is spiritual and tonight I felt that the love and God is always with me.

A reminder that if you ever feel at fault, that if you ever feel the weight of the world is too much, that if you ever feel alone against the struggle... That YOU are stronger, that YOU can overcome every challenge, that YOU can succeed. YOU have to believe it or YOU will fail. Remember that the next time you feel a little on the down side and see if it doesn't make you feel better.

Peace, love and unity.
Suspektz101

The Perfect Solution

Anyone ever have that feeling of finding the perfect solution to a problem?

I feel like I've been enlightened. Tonight in my scientific writing class we discussed our readings as usual and I had an epiphany. We were discussing the placebo effect and how the mind can make the body believe anything. I had known about this for years but I never put it to good use! It was all I needed to spin my head in the right direction.

Now I know that strictly believing something will make it true, I'm no fool. But it damn sure helps make the nights go by faster. I challenge anyone who reads this to apply that mindset. Make something crushing become less daunting and see just how strong you can be. I know my strength has faulted before and it possibly still can and will. But I won't be defeated and I will get back to living my life with clarity and a peaceful soul. You can quote me on that.

Life is as good as you make it. Sorry if it comes off as cliche, but live with no regrets. Get over the pain and make a new choice that will bring you love and happiness. Love your family, your friends and all those in between cause you can never give or receive too much love and respect. I'm an optimistic man. I still believe in the absolute good in people, so goodnight to all of you who feel that the world doesn't care because if you can take one thing away from me, it's that I care.

Peace, love and unity.

Reflection

What do you believe in when Love fails?

This is not because of any one person, but more a reflection of my own crippled heart. It's still full of love and life, but it has been through enough torture to know it needs rest.

You know a broken man when you see he has a broken heart. The pain and resentment is enough to drive him insane and I am no stranger to pain. Love often feels like tug of war inside my mind and my soul but the opponent is a wall. I tug and fight as hard as I can, even feeling like I've moved the giant slab of rock but in the end I haven't gone anywhere and I give up in defeat. So what can someone who has lost seemingly everything do to make himself escape the darkness?

I've found that if you give in to the pain, it will only consume you more quickly. Fighting the pain is easy but you have to fight with the right weapons. When everything you do reminds you of the one you lost, get out. Get away. Just get as far away from the normality as you can. Change where you go for coffee in the morning, change the route you take to work. Go out and be with friends that truly care about your well being and grow. You have to keep your mind off of the pain, cause it will only take you apart piece by piece. Now, some may say they have better resolve. That they are strong enough to fight the pain of the heart. I'm strong, but I know when I need help. And if my ranting on about broken hearts comes as no surprise, then you are one who has gone through the same stress and have my sympathy. Even if you want it or not.

Fairy Tale Blues

This is just a rant, so I don't really expect any sense to come from this.

But what is it with fairy tales and fantasy that seems to pull me in so much? I firmly believe in the power of love and how it can change any person. Yet the real world doesn't always follow that same principle. The world we live in is about money, physical appearance and power with some religion sprinkled in for controversy. We are incapable of realizing just how powerful love can be or at the very least most people on Earth are incapable. I think I know that power, and I always believe at the start of a new relationship that love will guide me correctly. And it starts off great! Everything falls into place as it should, sparks fly and the moments are magical but then the real world decides to kick in and destroy whatever fantasy I had built up this time. What should I take from this? What should I do in the future? Give in to the real world demands of love and happiness or forge my own path and break the veil that the world has pulled over my eyes. I'm a fighter, always have been and always will be. Especially when it comes to love. So the next time the real world decides to break me, we'll see who comes out on top.

Peace and Love,

Suspektz101

We're Still Here

We’re Still Here
By: Damon Cooper

Nigger is what you called me,
but that is not what you made me.
You lash out with whips and hate
but that makes me stronger.
Born unafraid of your segregation
and humiliation that was meant for my people.

We are unified under the solstice
that is our Lord the Father.
No knife or bullet or white hooded
menace could ever pierce
the shield over my soul.
And as long as my soul still glows
from my faith within
I am a boulder.
Immovable as the ignorance
in your heart.
Jagged as the pain you have caused my people.

Your lies like weights
try to crush and hold us 6 feet under
gasping for breath.
Your white supremacists
mock our very existence.

Yet we are still here.
We stand tall.
We stand as one.
As strong as the ball and chain
you’ve clasped on our ankles.
We stand as one.
Brave and fierce even as your hoses
try and spray us down.
We stand as one.
Fists held high as a symbol
of your demise.
We stand as one.

Now look me in the eyes
And tell me that shit aint real.

Comments are always welcome, if you have a voice then use it!

Suspektz101

Big Brother

Big Brother
By: Damon Cooper

I could see it in your eyes,
the way you sat on the couch in front
of my window. I could see
the bulge in your neck as your head
slumped backward and you had your
favorite bottle of Carlos Rossi in hand.
I knew, before the tears burned
down your face, I knew.
You had done this to me before,
had come crying to me even though
I am your younger brother,
saying you hated life and wanted peace.
You told me you loved me and that
you were sorry for hurting me.
I didn’t understand the look in
your eyes then, not even when you took
a lighter to your back and set it on fire.
Suddenly believing what you’d done,
you screamed and jumped from my window,
attempting to kill the emotions
of lost love and poverty through death.
Shadows of your body crawled across the
house as you fell to the ground.
And I cried out to you.
I never forgot. I heard you,
I saw you twitch and burn
and now you look at me with the same eyes,
but I won’t cry anymore.


This one is for you David, I'm always praying for you.

Suspektz101