Reflection

What do you believe in when Love fails?

This is not because of any one person, but more a reflection of my own crippled heart. It's still full of love and life, but it has been through enough torture to know it needs rest.

You know a broken man when you see he has a broken heart. The pain and resentment is enough to drive him insane and I am no stranger to pain. Love often feels like tug of war inside my mind and my soul but the opponent is a wall. I tug and fight as hard as I can, even feeling like I've moved the giant slab of rock but in the end I haven't gone anywhere and I give up in defeat. So what can someone who has lost seemingly everything do to make himself escape the darkness?

I've found that if you give in to the pain, it will only consume you more quickly. Fighting the pain is easy but you have to fight with the right weapons. When everything you do reminds you of the one you lost, get out. Get away. Just get as far away from the normality as you can. Change where you go for coffee in the morning, change the route you take to work. Go out and be with friends that truly care about your well being and grow. You have to keep your mind off of the pain, cause it will only take you apart piece by piece. Now, some may say they have better resolve. That they are strong enough to fight the pain of the heart. I'm strong, but I know when I need help. And if my ranting on about broken hearts comes as no surprise, then you are one who has gone through the same stress and have my sympathy. Even if you want it or not.